I often get told that I don’t act like a person who has had cancer. What am I supposed to act like? Am I supposed to let the cancer, even though it is gone, define who I am today? Act like I deserve everything and that people should give me special treatment?
A lot of people who I have met throughout my times in hospital and over the years since then seem to have this mindset. They let the cancer define them and let the world know it. They often let the fact that they have had cancer dictate their lives around them.
I honestly don’t see the point in that. Yes, I did have leukemia. Yes, it has been a significant part of my life and journey so far. However, I have chosen to let it REFINE, not define who I am. I choose to let the things I have been through and the choices I make be influences on who I am today. I don’t often let people know, I hardly ever attended Canteen* events and to be honest I often forget myself that I am a cancer survivor.
This is not because I want to forget my past, but because I don’t want it to define who I am. I will let my past experiences influence my present to some degree, but not dictate it. I want to just carry on as a normal member of society (ok so I’m not that normal!)
REFINE, not define.
"We are what we believe we are."- C. S. Lewis
Note: I in no way mean to disrespect anyone currently dealing with any sort of cancer. It is a tough road that unfortunately some people don’t get to travel as far as others. There is always hope! Prayer helps too.
These are some of the signs that will accompany believers: They will throw out demons in my name, they will speak in new tongues, they will take snakes in their hands, they will drink poison and not be hurt, they will lay hands on the sick and make them well.” Mark 16:17-18 (MSG)
These are just my thoughts, feel free to ignore them if you don’t agree.
*Canteen is a great organisation, supporting young people living with Cancer - www.canteen.org.nz